The veil had been lifted
She knew me now….she knew what I had done.
She looked at me with hope that I would make it right, that
I would tell her it was a lie, that I hadn’t done it, that I hadn’t failed
her…..
I remained silent, looked her in the eye and when I couldn’t
do it any longer I bowed my head in acceptance.
And then it sank into her, the reality, the finality of my
deed. Her face changed shades from hope to such an acute pain that it became
palpable!
She did not utter a word. She closed her eyes, moments
passed…..however many they were, they felt like years of torment…she opened
them. “Traitor!”, they screamed.
I flinched, because in that moment I knew I knew there was no going back, that I
will never be who I was before, not to her, not to the world and especially, not to myself.
Life as I knew it was over. There will only be remorse but
no absolution.
